'There is a sacredness in tears...'
3 years - it's just a shortest period for everyone perhaps but if you ask me, it give such a countless bittersweet moment for me. It's totally screwed up my life and every parts of it full of wounds and scars that will never heal nor cicatrize. I emphasize again, my faith never doubt about the fates that Allah Almighty destined to me, in fact I accept these as a part of growing up that I should fill up instead.
2010 - Being a freshie in a new school was not easy - surrounded by a new friends, backstabbers, fakers and cheaters are one of my long nightmare but he made me went through for it well without any heartache impact. Yes, meet him was blessing from god. Day by day, our love story became my passion and everything make sense to us though several arguments made us separated for a few times. As saying goes, if we're meant to be, we will find the way to get back. Yes, that what we try to do indeed. My beautiful days with him will never be forgotten.
2011 - SPM year for us. I started to take seriously every part of things that I learned in school. Month after month, I hate the feeling that we're drifting away from each other but I keep myself busier than ever just to forget how broke i am inside back then and it became worst when he replaced my throne in his heart with someone else who I used to call friend. Unconscious for 2 days in hospital due to extreme depression signed that I can't do anything except standing quiet and asking myself that it is the gift of trusting someone and is this what i deserve?
2012 - 3 month after he left me, I became stronger than before. Carry out my daily routine without him besides me. Memories start to fade and disappear. I let things unfold in their own way and I believed sometimes Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us. I start my new life in a new soleness world but yet I still keep his place empty, in cased he will come back someday but now all I wish is here. He wants me back but its too late. I'm done :')