I WISH I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE

Day by day,I feel so isolated. Falling deeper down the hole certainly not my option. You know how it feels when you try your best to bury down all the bad memories yet the pain seems not to fade? Pretty much pathetic.I exactly know what the pain is,I live with it everyday. I just... hate the way I am right now. Suffering depression in silence is the most painful things I must say.

Have extreme suspicion is good at the beginning but somehow when it turn out into something that backfired me,I'm lost. Now,to get rid of this feeling never succeeded so far. Too bad? Indeed. I always feel like everything goes wrong. Everything is not in the right place. These feelings always lead to animosity,hatred and what's even worse,friendships come to an end! Oh Allah,I'm crying while typing these crap.

These utter shit feeling shouldn't be there,in my life. Change and that's all you've to do now Putri. Don't worry,Allah will helps His worshiper who want to be in the right path. Just keep trust and have faith! InsyaAllah.